We have movement - I think. ;)

I have been feeling little flutters and twinges for a couple of weeks now that I think might be baby, but I'm not totally sure. Last night though, I felt a pretty solid thump in the lower abdomen that I can't think might be anything but baby. Yay! I am thrilled to be at the feeling movement stage.

Natalya is getting more and more excited about the baby. She tells me, "Mommy, I love it when my baby comes". Silly goose. I tell her she's got a while to go before that happens, but I explained that she might be able to feel the baby moving around soon and she was very sxcited about that. She asks about the baby all the time and every time she sees someone that is not me or Doug, she informs them, "You know, the baby in Mommy's tummy is going to be a brother or a sister". Even if she's told them this a thousand times before. :) It's possible she's told my grandfather this at least 50 times.

My mother had the privelege of babysitting Natalya Friday night while Doug and I had a parent's getaway. We went to spend the night at the Opryland Hotel (super discount thanks to my Mom) and dinner at the Melting Pot, then Saturday went to go see Indiana jones and walked around the mall a little bit.
At any rate, my mom tells my yesterday that she thinks it's funny because Natalya is like me when I was a child, but more-so. For example, as a child, I always had adult mannerisms, but she says Natalya is like an extreme version of me. So where I had the adult mannerisms, N has them ten times more than I did.

Right now she is "talking" on her phone and she is talking to grandma (or so she tells me) and she is telling Grandma about her birthday cake that she is going to have and asked Grandma what kind of cake it should be and apparently Grandma told her chocolate. LOL! (I love her entire imagined conversations)

The other day she was doing something I told her not to do because I didn't want her to get hurt (can't remember what it was) and she fell. All of a sudden she hollars "I'M OKAY!" I couldn't even see her. I just heard her yell that. It was so funny.

With each day that passes I get more and more excited about having another baby. The fear of loss lessens and the excitement replaces it. I still am nervous, and expect I will be regardless, but it is nice to be excited for the child that is to come without being worried and obsessed about the child that is lost.

Updates and so sorry I've been away!

Hello all you readers (all one? two? of you) :D
I can't believe I've been absent from here so long. It's been, well, I don't know. I feel like I've been busy, but then I can't think what I've been doing. Taking care of a nearly-three year old? Gestating a 15-week-old? That's about it.

Natalya is hitting her stride lately. What a silly girl! Yesterday we went to the Motocross/Motorcycle store to take a gander/drool at some motorcycles and try to get a gameplan together for Doug's motorcycle. Natalya LOVES motorcycles. She was nothing but grins when we walked in.

We were leaving and she said, but Mommy, I thought Daddy was going to get a motorcycle (very upset). I said not today honey, we were just looking today.
She didn't totally get that "just looking" concept and kept asking about it. As we got nearer home, she said it again and Doug gave her this long spiel(as he does sometimes, messing with her) about how we were just looking today and that we can't just jump into things and make snap decisions, because we don't want him to kill himself on a motorcycle. We have to be smart and make little steps so we can make good decisions, blah blah blah.
After his several minute long speech, N thought about it for a second and said, But I like to take BIG steps!

OMG. Doug and I laughed so hard, we had tears streaming down our faces. What a girl, this one.

As for me, I'm good. I had a midiwfe appt on Monday and everything looks/sounds good. We got to hear the heartbeat. N's favorite part. She always runs around telling people, you know? the baby in mommy's tummy is going to be a brother or a sister.
I have an appt on June 16th as well as an ultrasound. That will be the day we find out the sex (if baby cooperates) and hopefully that everything is progressing nicely. The mw agreed that I will have some extra u/s's after about 26ish weeks just to keep an eye on fluid levels and other things, since we lost Margaret at nearly 31 weeks.

Doug starts his new job on Monday. Yahoo! We had a crazy, long, ridiculous weekend that I may talk about later, but the end story is that after 1200 miles on the road over the course of 3 days, we got his truck dropped off in Atlanta and he's completed his job with King Transportation/Werner. No more Big Trucks!! YAY!!

Sick, yuk, sick, blech

So I'm sorry for the very long delay in posts. We've been sick. Really sick. Remember the cough and sniffle Natalya had? Yeah, that developed into full blown sickness, and then I got it. And I still have it. I believe I have the flu though. I can't even get up my flight of steps without feeling like I am going to faint and all I've wanted to do it stay in bed all week.

a few of N's moments...

I heard honey was a good way to stop a stubborn cough- so I tried the honey trick and it worked. But N's never had honey before - maybe a taste, but not a whole spoonful. :)
One night last week she already had her cough med, but it hadn't kicked in yet and she was coughing and couldn't sleep. I went and got her some ice chips and a small teaspoon of honey and held out the spoon. She asked me what it was and I said it will make your throat feel better. She said, ok and opened up. In the light of her humidifier I saw her surprise. After she swallowed, she said, with some reverence, "what was that?"
I said "honey"
She said "Mommy, I LIKE honey."
then she thuoght for a minute, laid down and said "Mommy, I like honey VERY MUCH"

hehehehehe

I gave her a chunk of ice to suck on, and no more coughing after that.

Mommy, it's a "beee-beee"

Natalya says "baby" so cute. She pronounces it "bee-bee". Mommy, you've got a beebee in your tummy. I have a beebee in my tummy.
About said beebee. . . s/he is causing much morning sickness! I swear it gets worse each time.
I went today and had an ultrasound, more for my own sense of security after our loss than any other reason. Everything looked fine and I am measuring exactly what I said, 6 weeks 5 days, due November 6th.

Here's the little Baby Blob


Amanda went with me to help wrangle Natalya (which wasn't really that big of a deal since we were only there a few minutes, but just to be on the safe side). She only lives about two minutes from the imaging center, so she was happy to go. It is always neat to see the baby in utero, even when it's nothing more than a pulsating blob. :) And we did get to see the hearbeat pulsing. Very, very cool.

In other news, Natalya is getting sick. I don't know what she picked up or where she picked it up- could have been one of many places, but she's got a stuffy/runny nose and she feels warm. I also noticed her pulling an ear today and when I asked her if it hurt she said it did. I will withhold judgement on that until tomorrow and if it seems to be still bothering her, I'll take her to the dr.

Otherwise, we're doing good. :) Waiting and hoping for Doug to have some other job opportunities coming his way to get him home more often. We're all really tired of him being gone all the time. It's been a year of this, and we're ready for something different.

Snow Day

I forgot to post about our snow day! On last Wednesday, I think it was, we got about 2 inches of snow. We got a little the night before, and a tad bit of accumulation, then the next morning, it had melted away a little, then it started snowing again. Really coming down! About 2 inches fell in a couple of hours and Natalya and I took advantage of it and went out and played in it. :) Good thing we did too! It almost all melted away by 4 that evening.

Welcome to the South. :)

She loved it. Loved throwing snowballs at me. Loved running around in the white fluffy stuff. Loved trying to catch the snowflakes with her tongue hanging out. Loved it so much she didnt want to come in, even thugh her nose was running and her cheeks were red.

She's a snowbird just like her Daddy.

The Secret

Now that I know The Secret, I am thrilled to be testing it out.

I have always been very good at visualizing things, but I never thought to visualize things I want. Duh.

So I put it to work again yesterday, I started visualizing a few things, one of them, finding money. I wasn't specific (although you can bet I will be in the future!) and today I stopped at the car wash to vacuum out the nooks and crannies of the van that the dealership missed (old cheerios. yuk!) and looked down and found a folded up dollar bill. Exactly how I pictured it, folded in half, then in half again.

Ok, now i need to find a $100 bill and fold it so I know what one looks like (it's been a long time) so I can visualize THAT!!

Our new car :)

We went today and traded in our Element for an Odyssey! Yahoo!
AND.... we got a 2005! They didn't have anything newer than an '04, of which they had 4, before Saturday, and I kept checking, knowing we were gong today. I was using my The Secret powers, and visualizing an '05. And when I got online last night to look- an '05~!

I love it soooo much! It's got some really cool features, like window shades that are hidden in the doors you can pull up and attach, and a 6-disc changer. I do love the extra seat in the front, and the fact that I can take it out and scoot N closer to me (I always put her behind the passenger side).
I especially love the dual climate control. On the way home my side was set at 76 and Doug's side was set at 65. LOL!


Here's some pics from the dealer site. Natalya loves it too- after we FINALLY left the dealership, we went to get some food b/c we were all starving. We were eating and she said I'm all done, I want to go get in my new car. Aww!



Then, we just had our first crazy new car, learning curve, incident. LOL.

Natalya likes to play with the key fob, honk the horn, etc. I always try to steal it back and lock the doors, but am not always successful. And. It is raining.

N was playing with the fob and we hear horns honking. I think crap. What if she opened the sliding doors. To my shock and amazement, when I looked out of the garage, the doors were closed, but the windows were OPEN! And it was pouring!

I had no idea how she did it and the only way I knew to roll them up was to turn the car on. so I ran back to get my keys (upstairs) and back out to the car (in the rain, in my socks!) and started the car, rolling all windows up.

Ok, so, apparently if you press the unlock button, then do it again, but hold it down, it rolls the windows down. (there's no way to roll them back up on the fob though).

I would've never known this if she hadn't done it, then I figured out how she did it (manual anyone?) and b) I didn't even know the back windows rolled down! Cool, and LOL!!

:D

Luckily, nothing got TOO wet. Except for my socks. ;)