We have movement - I think. ;)

I have been feeling little flutters and twinges for a couple of weeks now that I think might be baby, but I'm not totally sure. Last night though, I felt a pretty solid thump in the lower abdomen that I can't think might be anything but baby. Yay! I am thrilled to be at the feeling movement stage.

Natalya is getting more and more excited about the baby. She tells me, "Mommy, I love it when my baby comes". Silly goose. I tell her she's got a while to go before that happens, but I explained that she might be able to feel the baby moving around soon and she was very sxcited about that. She asks about the baby all the time and every time she sees someone that is not me or Doug, she informs them, "You know, the baby in Mommy's tummy is going to be a brother or a sister". Even if she's told them this a thousand times before. :) It's possible she's told my grandfather this at least 50 times.

My mother had the privelege of babysitting Natalya Friday night while Doug and I had a parent's getaway. We went to spend the night at the Opryland Hotel (super discount thanks to my Mom) and dinner at the Melting Pot, then Saturday went to go see Indiana jones and walked around the mall a little bit.
At any rate, my mom tells my yesterday that she thinks it's funny because Natalya is like me when I was a child, but more-so. For example, as a child, I always had adult mannerisms, but she says Natalya is like an extreme version of me. So where I had the adult mannerisms, N has them ten times more than I did.

Right now she is "talking" on her phone and she is talking to grandma (or so she tells me) and she is telling Grandma about her birthday cake that she is going to have and asked Grandma what kind of cake it should be and apparently Grandma told her chocolate. LOL! (I love her entire imagined conversations)

The other day she was doing something I told her not to do because I didn't want her to get hurt (can't remember what it was) and she fell. All of a sudden she hollars "I'M OKAY!" I couldn't even see her. I just heard her yell that. It was so funny.

With each day that passes I get more and more excited about having another baby. The fear of loss lessens and the excitement replaces it. I still am nervous, and expect I will be regardless, but it is nice to be excited for the child that is to come without being worried and obsessed about the child that is lost.

Updates and so sorry I've been away!

Hello all you readers (all one? two? of you) :D
I can't believe I've been absent from here so long. It's been, well, I don't know. I feel like I've been busy, but then I can't think what I've been doing. Taking care of a nearly-three year old? Gestating a 15-week-old? That's about it.

Natalya is hitting her stride lately. What a silly girl! Yesterday we went to the Motocross/Motorcycle store to take a gander/drool at some motorcycles and try to get a gameplan together for Doug's motorcycle. Natalya LOVES motorcycles. She was nothing but grins when we walked in.

We were leaving and she said, but Mommy, I thought Daddy was going to get a motorcycle (very upset). I said not today honey, we were just looking today.
She didn't totally get that "just looking" concept and kept asking about it. As we got nearer home, she said it again and Doug gave her this long spiel(as he does sometimes, messing with her) about how we were just looking today and that we can't just jump into things and make snap decisions, because we don't want him to kill himself on a motorcycle. We have to be smart and make little steps so we can make good decisions, blah blah blah.
After his several minute long speech, N thought about it for a second and said, But I like to take BIG steps!

OMG. Doug and I laughed so hard, we had tears streaming down our faces. What a girl, this one.

As for me, I'm good. I had a midiwfe appt on Monday and everything looks/sounds good. We got to hear the heartbeat. N's favorite part. She always runs around telling people, you know? the baby in mommy's tummy is going to be a brother or a sister.
I have an appt on June 16th as well as an ultrasound. That will be the day we find out the sex (if baby cooperates) and hopefully that everything is progressing nicely. The mw agreed that I will have some extra u/s's after about 26ish weeks just to keep an eye on fluid levels and other things, since we lost Margaret at nearly 31 weeks.

Doug starts his new job on Monday. Yahoo! We had a crazy, long, ridiculous weekend that I may talk about later, but the end story is that after 1200 miles on the road over the course of 3 days, we got his truck dropped off in Atlanta and he's completed his job with King Transportation/Werner. No more Big Trucks!! YAY!!